Sleepless night

It is one of those nights where no matter how long i close my eyes.. My mind refuses to shut down.
There's nothing bothering me, just many small things lingering around in my head.

I thought about the days when I was adamant to lead a happy life, to forgive and forget, to ignore and go forward. To the resolution of being myself, not afraid to make stands against what I don't agree with, critical thinking.

And today, more careful with people, able to laugh and disagree. I wonder if this is what some people call mercenary, discerning and doubtful. No matter how I look at this progression, or should I say regression, it seems wrong.

I happen to come across this phrase "有的关心是虚伪的、有的关心是真实的＂I'm hoping that I will never come to a stage where people will look too deep into what i tell them. I won't make statements to indirectly reflect good on myself. I won't say things so that others can hear about them indirectly through a third party.

I mght have lost abit of my character over the 2 years but I think I havn't lost all.

Life is just hard to take it all in. Where was the dumb Wilbert?

Excuses

Hmm.. Wondering what kind of excuse should I give for not wanting to attend a friend's wedding...

It's kind of like Deja vu and it's going to be the third time. Not sure to be happy or not :|

Perhaps ... Nike's got it right .. Just do it

蟋蟀对着螳螂有什么东西好说。。。 何必抱这种遗憾到未来的天堂

Was listening to the lyrics of a song by eason chan while on my way home and find that it's really meaningful .. Never really paid attention to the lyrics before today ..

:)

作曲：陈辉阳 作词：林夕 编曲：金培达

小叮当 不爱回家喫饭
宁愿在大安公园捉迷藏
看明月光 低头不思故乡
宁愿看漫画不听妈妈的评弹

孩子们只会贪玩 父母都只会期望
为什么天南地北不能互相体谅
蟋蟀对着螳螂 有什么东西好说
shall we talk shall we talk
好像过去牵着手去上学堂

请你说 我们为何变成陌路人的模样
请你说 还有什么比沉默更难堪
难道互相隐藏
就能避免了失望
表白有什么可怕
请你不怕为难不要拐弯

屏幕闪亮 两个人一起看
什么都不谈只敢打着官腔
情侣的晚餐 白开水一样淡
宁愿面对着一部电脑无事忙

情侣都善于说谎 大人都会向钱看
为什么天南地北不能互相体谅
蟋蟀对着螳螂 有什么东西好说
shall we talk shall we talk
好让我们重新认识别隐瞒

请你说 请你说出心里难以承受的伤
不能说 除非我们早已忘记了爱的力量
聊天只能假装 表情需要勉强
何必把这种遗撼 带到未来的天堂

天黑黑 孩子们不在身旁
都跑到外面干活爱吃便当
and shall we talk 只有树叶摇晃
沉默到听得见那如歌的行版

New year, New aims

Hmm I think I went overseas quite abit last year. I don't think I'll be able to do so this year.. On budget..

Regardless, I think I am still aiming for 2 good trips this year .. Greece and Taiwan! :)

Hopefully to party hard in Taiwan and to chill in Greece.

Hopefully ...

Got news that I may be leaving my team sometime this year in April. Quite apprehensive about what's going to come .. Not sure to feel happy or what hmm. Besides, its not such a good year for dogs this year .. Haha quite ironic ..

Whatever... to a good year ahead

Can't sleep

... I hope it's a joke or a prank ...


Why is it like that ...

Gan chu shen tong

I seldom regret things that I have done ... But this time, it's kind of ... dunno what to say ... just feeling zonked out

My mind is blank ... sometimes its good not to think too much, just do it, never give up the chance ...

argh i'm an idiot ... real idioot this time round

Xmas didnt seem to be too good this yr

Craze

Been thinking of getting many stuffs lately haha

Though am really broke .. but am really quite gian to get the subaru impreza haah or the kia koupe. Will be going for a test drive soon! vrroommz :)

Am intending to sell off my macbook pro 17" as well, so as to get the cool iMac haha. The to die for screen ... drrooolllls lol

Silence is golden

Went for a feng shui talk today... seems like its better for me to keep quiet about things, work hard and stay low for the coming year. I think that's hard to achieve given that I have many complaints and will voice out given the chance.

I think I have changed abit over this 1 year. Becoming more shrewd when it comes to relationships, not as naive and gullible as before - thinking about more things. Not all friends are friends ... not all colleagues are friends ...

Its a bad thing to me ... But ... am having mixed feelings about this issue. Besides more shrewd, I think I have also become more opinionated. Which ... I have never been known to have before. Some things have gone wrong ... somehow ...

Hopefully year 2010 will be a good year, though the feng shui master says it will be a lonely year for dogs .. I am already lonely now! haha how worse can it get ... i wonder ...

Anyways, resolution for year 2010 is not to antagonize anyone .. and yet ... to be myself ... how ironic can this be haha

Cheers to the end of year 2009

Aristotle

Read an article recently that explains a theory by aristotle related to relationship -interpersonal relationship.

According to Aristotle, there are three kinds of interpersonal relationship
1) utility
2) pleasure
3) virtue

Utility is the most superficial kind of the three. It means that the relationship only started because both sides have a purpose. Eg buyer, seller or working colleagues - basically the hi bye friends

Pleasure brings it up to another level. This kind of relationship us built upon common hobbies, activities such as maybe photography, movies, drinks etc. This kind of relationship will last only for as long as both parties continue to derive the same pleasure from a common activity.

Virtue is the one that goes down deep to simply enjoying the other's character and personality. Because one's character is rooted, this is by far the most long lasting kind of relationship - unless of cos it's the impression and not true character you are portraying.

Find above pretty interesting.

Oh no ...

Not entirely truthful ... wth

ok ok, have finished shifting my wardrobe etc heh for the installation of a ceiling fan. My room is much airy now haha

just in time for xmas!

Recently lost quite abit of $$ in stocks :( sians ... hopefully things will get better ...

xmas is coming!! :) cant wait for it but not sure what to do as well. Will be on leave from 23rd onwards this year haha :D maybe a short trip or perhaps just nua at home .. hmm whatever it is, just come already haha